|Thoughts from the edge
||[Jul. 30th, 2006|02:19 am]
James Westfall and Dr. Kenneth Noisewater
I don't know where to begin nor where to end, all I know is where I am standing.
I can't begain to explain how weird and out of touch I feel at the moment. Since I've been back, sometimes I feel like I'm not who I use to be. To my friends and shit they haven't noticed a change, but I can feel it on the inside. Its fucking surreal, barely even noticeable to me, and it happens in a thought or something minor like that.
I can't watch the news anymore, It gets more and more fucking depressing every god damned day. Supposedly were sending 17,000 more troops over, which is good we need it in the middle east. The situation has gotten too far out of control and the world is way to fucking small now to let crazies still be around. At the same time it makes me nervous, because its me whos going. I'd be lying if I didn't say I wasn't nervous about going to war. At the same time I knew I was going to go and can't complain I signed and I choose the infantry. Don't be confused I'm not second guessing me choice, I still would have signed and still choose the infantry, I'd feel proud if I die for my country but, It would be unnatural and unhuman for me to say I'm not scared of dieing. I feel It's my duty now and I am sick and tired of seeing people sitting around just watching the world unfold before them without acting. We may be doing more harm than good, but at least it's some good and to a people that have known only oppression since day one. All I know is this, I love my job, I believe deep down what I am doing will be good in the long run, I love being and an infantryman the backbone of this country, but I don't want to die nor do I want to see those around me get hurt. I just want to help people that are helpless and not have to do something thats is in someones elses politics. I don't know where I'm going with this or if you even care I just wanted to say it because I've been voiceless for a long time, for clarity.
I may have a voice of infinate syllables and vowels but it has always been said better.
"Men and women sleep easy at night, because rough men stand ready to defend to enemies of freedom."
p.s. I got a new tattoo and it's fucking sick